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Aug. 16th, 2007 04:55 pmI am completely disoriented, without any reason to be so. And I don't have time or energy left over to pursue this. It's depressing. It's energizing. Puzzling and scattering my brain. So, so sad and meh, whatever, at the same time.
I want to flee, I want to be, I want to vanish and conquer.
It's not a very powerful feeling, more like silent drums in the background. But it's there and very consistently so. It's everywhere. I'm hungry, but I don't really want to eat anything. I want to run and curl up and sleep. Don't think about anything at all and work hard until I Flow.
Flee into fantasy, live profusely, vanish completely and conquer the sky, the world and myself.
Drum, drum, drum, drum.
Ideas standing behind me, beckoning my heart. Whispers in my dreams and drums, drums, drums.
I want to flee, I want to be, I want to vanish and conquer.
It's not a very powerful feeling, more like silent drums in the background. But it's there and very consistently so. It's everywhere. I'm hungry, but I don't really want to eat anything. I want to run and curl up and sleep. Don't think about anything at all and work hard until I Flow.
Flee into fantasy, live profusely, vanish completely and conquer the sky, the world and myself.
Drum, drum, drum, drum.
Ideas standing behind me, beckoning my heart. Whispers in my dreams and drums, drums, drums.
